so my sophomore life was finally over:) no more terror teacher! i hope so. need to say bye bye to my other classmates who’ll be transferring to other school. i’m really glad i need not to adjust again for my surroundings because i’ll be with my former classmates for my junior life new teachers new room additional friends but same peepz! hahah. i’m used spending my whole school day with them and a school day without them is a big NO NO. hahah. i can say that i really enjoyed my sophomore life rather than what i expected before. when i was just a freshmen i’m so scared of bein a sophie i thought when i enter my sophomore life many thing will change and i will can never adapt to those changes at my 1st days of bein a sophie i really don’t like it i’m wishing to be back at my 1st year life my room, teachers especially my classmates i want them back even though i have some of my classmates together with me in my section i still long for the others. but as time goes by i found new friends that suites my attitude we became very close friends and that made me love my sophomore life and now because i loved it so much i can’t let it go. now i can prove to myself that the saying “HISTORY REPEATS ITSELF” is certainly true. feelings i felt before i entered my sophomore life and after saying goodbye to freshmen year is here again. i wonder what’s waiting for me in my junior life. i hope pressures and stress in studying will lessen. i guess there’ll be more activities because the extra curricular points are now activated. i’m expecting to see people dying to have those things. hahah. i also wonder how will be the training for cocc look like i’m so excited for that it’s one of the things i’ve been waiting to experience in my highschool year. ammm. i’m still wonder what are the things i need to expect on my junior year? oh the cheering competition. hahah so exciting i wonder if we can still retain the title i hope so and i hope i ‘m still included in the team because 4 sure many will be craving to join the cheerdance team. oh! the prom! hahah. i can’t wait! my sophie life will be an unmemorable experience for me and junior life is something is should wait for so GOODBYE SOPHIE life. HELLO JUNIOR year! vacation’s here. more time for leisure activities. swim, swim, swim, fun under the sun, i’ll be making shakes again for refreshment i missed doing that during school time. ice cream will always be present on our refrigerator. more time to spend with my cousins i’ll be able to visit them often and stay there for a long time. i can again take a nap at 2am. hahah. watch my unlimited collection of kdramas these are some of the things i can’t love without their presence . i can spend the whole day txting, of using the net. i can now fix my accounts more BLOOOGS! and more blog accounts. hahah. i can eat anytime i want. or not to eat at all hahah. i can now skip meals because my body doesn’t requires food when i’m not doin anything hahah.

so how will i start this blog? actually i really don’t know what to say. i just know that all i wanna do is to cry and to cry until all the hurt finally fades. i don’t know what should i feel would i be happy or would i be sad? i don’t know how to explain what’s bothering me. i just know that i’m carrying to much pain inside my chest and i don’t know if i can still survive it. i wish i can still handle all the hurt. there are only 5 days left and BOOM! he will be gone! FOREVER! how i wish the 5 days left will be multiplied at least to 10. now tell me how will i bring back the joy i always have when he’s there. he’s simple existence changed my life a lot. so how would i live my life when he’s there no more? what if the person whom you always gave all your love to will be leaving you and he wants you to be happy and not to think of him instead think of things that will make you happy? but how can you make yourself smile if he’s the only one who has the ability to do it? the most beautiful smiles will be finally leaving me:(

—SHOCKS! 5 days nalang 5 days qouwh nalang cia makkta dati sabi qouwh magi2ng masaya nako kc wala ng panggulo un ang akala qouwh pero ang hirap pala kapag wala nah cia kc ngayon pa nga lang na di pah cia umaalis halos araw araw na akong naiyak d qouwh alam kung pano nako pag wala na cia pano pah aqouwh ngingiti ng wala dahilan? cnoh ng hi2ntayin qoung bumaba ng hagdaan? ung cclipn qouwh xah room? ung aakyat aqouwh xah taas para lang maktah cia at cnoh nah magpa2iyak sakin? hahah. sabi qouwh dati dapat pag wala nah cia ma22nan qouwh ng maging masaya ul8, bumalik don xah dating aqouwh ung walang pnoproblema pero kaya qouwh kea? 5 days nalang da2ting nah ung knata2kutan qoung araw pano kenag ga2win qouwh don xah nttrang 5 days? magi2ng masaya kea aqouwh o magpa2kaEMO? gz2 qoung maging masaya pero pano kea? cgeh ngah try mowh ngumiti habang naiyak? 1 year 7 months qouwh nah ciang labs taz ngayon 5 days nalang mawa2la nah cia ang galing noh? so ganon nalang pala un? kailangan pagalis nyah makamove on nako agad? parang hindi masakit noh?







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footsteps away from me:(