so how will i start this blog? actually i really don’t know what to say. i just know that all i wanna do is to cry and to cry until all the hurt finally fades. i don’t know what should i feel would i be happy or would i be sad? i don’t know how to explain what’s bothering me. i just know that i’m carrying to much pain inside my chest and i don’t know if i can still survive it. i wish i can still handle all the hurt. there are only 5 days left and BOOM! he will be gone! FOREVER! how i wish the 5 days left will be multiplied at least to 10. now tell me how will i bring back the joy i always have when he’s there. he’s simple existence changed my life a lot. so how would i live my life when he’s there no more? what if the person whom you always gave all your love to will be leaving you and he wants you to be happy and not to think of him instead think of things that will make you happy? but how can you make yourself smile if he’s the only one who has the ability to do it? the most beautiful smiles will be finally leaving me:(

—SHOCKS! 5 days nalang 5 days qouwh nalang cia makkta dati sabi qouwh magi2ng masaya nako kc wala ng panggulo un ang akala qouwh pero ang hirap pala kapag wala nah cia kc ngayon pa nga lang na di pah cia umaalis halos araw araw na akong naiyak d qouwh alam kung pano nako pag wala na cia pano pah aqouwh ngingiti ng wala dahilan? cnoh ng hi2ntayin qoung bumaba ng hagdaan? ung cclipn qouwh xah room? ung aakyat aqouwh xah taas para lang maktah cia at cnoh nah magpa2iyak sakin? hahah. sabi qouwh dati dapat pag wala nah cia ma22nan qouwh ng maging masaya ul8, bumalik don xah dating aqouwh ung walang pnoproblema pero kaya qouwh kea? 5 days nalang da2ting nah ung knata2kutan qoung araw pano kenag ga2win qouwh don xah nttrang 5 days? magi2ng masaya kea aqouwh o magpa2kaEMO? gz2 qoung maging masaya pero pano kea? cgeh ngah try mowh ngumiti habang naiyak? 1 year 7 months qouwh nah ciang labs taz ngayon 5 days nalang mawa2la nah cia ang galing noh? so ganon nalang pala un? kailangan pagalis nyah makamove on nako agad? parang hindi masakit noh?







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footsteps away from me:(